Kimberly's Blog - Beautiful Movements

What are your fears?

After reading through comments on my last blog, “Fear”, I found the question, “What are your fears”? At first I cowered, trembling at the thought of being open enough to share my dark secrets of what I fear. Then I realized it was time to face my fears and share. Nobody is perfect and although we choose to create our own worlds of happiness, love and compassion, negativity gets us down from time to time. It’s how you deal with the negative aspects of your life that define you as a person. The only way we are able to create a positive and happy world is to acknowledge what goes on inside our heads then face it with courage and do the work to change our patterns of destruction.

I have many fears that I deal with. I fear being alone. I fear not having enough money to pay my bills or having work enough to support myself. I fear destruction in the world. As I venture into other areas of art I fear that I won’t be good or successful. I fear the warrior within me when I’m faced with difficult people or situations. I fear transitions when my heart gives me the answers to make change. But most of all I fear having regrets when I’m old. It’s the fear of having regrets when I’m old that fuels me to be brave and make good choices.

Everyone in this world deals with fear, doubt, and worry. Your mind is a very powerful muscle and it’s up to you to transform the way you think. I make a point to face my fears everyday in order to make change. I use my rituals of using essential oils, breathing and meditation to talk myself through the anxiety these fears can create. Hot bathes soothe my soul when doubt gets the best of me. I have awesome friends around me that are here when I need a helping hand, a shoulder to cry on, or a listening ear to blow off steam. I have Beautiful Movements to throw myself into positive action for change.

I am consciously making an effort to be the example of change. I have spent years doing the work and being the observer to understand how to create a beautiful world of my own. I’ve learned how to deal with my emotions and dig deep enough to know what my triggers are and how they came to be. As a result I am able to cut my cycles in life and be aware of negative people and situations and how they affect me. I am a good person with a passion for life. I write my blogs to inspire others, bring hope and faith to anyone that’s ready for it and spread my love and light.

Facing our fears together is the kind of change this world needs. I wear my Amma bracelet, my journey beads, and my sun god bracelet all as reminders of my bigger purpose. I have my tattoos, “Love Life”, and “may all beings in all the worlds be happy”, as a testament of my commitment to being the change I wish to see in the world. I am far from perfect but I seek happiness and strive for the simplicity of what happiness is. What makes me most happy in life is making a contribution to better the world around me. I live to be the hope and inspiration I see shining in the eyes of all my fans.

God gave me the gift of expression. He gave me the ability to touch people’s lives. With that gift I feel the responsibility to be the best example I can be. So when I face situations that bring fear, I embrace it and continue forward because my purpose is of ultimate importance to me. I am a warrior of light.

(Posted June 3rd 2009).